Wednesday, April 30, 2003

something to share... ari tu mase on the way back from sydney to brisbane.. while we are heading to coffs hobour... berenti kat kedai tepi jalan... coz... k syima wants to get some banana... coz.. that place is call big banana... aku bukan the pisang type of girl... at that time laa... hehhehe then... beside the shop ada art and craft shop.... but not practically beside... a bit behind the shop la... aku masuk kat the kedai... and tgk2 barang yg dia ada.... basically nak carik something special to suria.... fuh.... harga boleh tahan... but... i was so peramah... sembang ngan org yg jage kedai tu... shes an old lady... around 60 to 70... talking abt what special in the shops....she likes blue... and i said... im a blue girl.... sbb masa tu mmg pakai tudung biru and t shirt biru... hehhehe then.... dia pun kate la suke tgk tudung aku.... ape lagi... aku pun start laa.... we call this hijab... but in malaysia we call this tudung.... but overhere we can just call it... head cover... hehehhe... cool ha... then... daawah di mana saja... pastu aisyah call... tanya where am i.... pastu aku pun terpakse pegi... sedey plak sbb makcik nih baik... and very peramah... baru dia nak tanye sket abt Islam.. aku dah kene pegi... semoga Allah hantar org lain kat kedai dia... yg best tu... masa aku nak pegi... aku cakap.. laa... im really sorry for not buying anthing from your shop... this is really a great shop.... org tua tu: dont be sorry love.... come again if u wanna go to sydney.... ok.. take care of yourself.... bye... then we hug.... haaaaa best tak????dia peluk aku dgn erat sekali...pastu aku pun lari la kat van sambil pusing blakang lambai kat dia... lambaian gaya ratu cantik columbia... hehhehe... sampai van... derang pun cerita....actually a amir dah jalan dah.... pastu baru derang sedar im not there.... sarah ngan mas yg sedar... hehehhe tapi that moment really touches my feelings... why... because... he seems like my grandma... even my grandma is not that peramah... even she is not peramah at all i think... hehehe... but her face... just remind me to somebody... tapi nasib baik jugak laa aku tak kene tinggal.... hehehhe.... im out of nowhere... kene tinggal sedih beb.. hari2 la makan pisang... hehhe.... and practically become he assistant.. heheh....

if im not working... i want to open up a bakery.... that sells cakes and breads.... the australian way of baking it... i like australian bread.... and of course... a halal one... i want to bake a weding cakes... birthday cakes... puddings.... even in my bakery i want to have a small cafe... where u can buy cakes and eat there.... probably a malaysian style one... where u can get teh tarik... and a bit of a western taste in the cafe where u can also order capucino... mocha... hot choclate... hehehhe

or i want to open a souviner shop... cam memory lane...or lovely lace.... oohhh i love lovely lace.... and selling cards.. birthday cards... and everything to people... presents...

or a book stall... islamic book store... and sell english islamic book coz... its very rare to find one in malaysia... heheh ini lah angan angan.... ntah... something to share...

ok... today is a great beautiful day for somebody.... for suria.. irdayu.... she's 20 today.... i know her back in 2000.... there is just one instinct suddenly something whisper in my heart.... to talk to here.. we had a bit of talking.... at the buaian... blakang mozac.. and then i know that shes a debater also... and shes the head girl also.... we had something in common.... but the most common part is... she agrees with me that.. when Allah gives u something... then He will take something from you... we had practically similar experience... being a head girl in the school... not like by people.... then... debater.... then... alhamdulillah....shes an excellent student ... an me... alhamdulillah i can maintain it... but that is the moment... the moment i know her... the moment.... i talked to her until 2 in the morning... hehheheh then... im off to teluk intan back....

sampai skolah... tulis surat... can u imagine... i can write full 2 pages depan belakang.. to someone i dont even know her father's name... hehheheh then.... she send a bee card to me.... honey.... wow... so cute... and from that moment... we always contact each other.... we comfort each other.... and she is my best buddy....

suria... i know you for the sake of Allah... and i love u for the sake of Allah.... thank you Allah for giving me this great gift.... im not dare to lose this gift.... (hope that this doesnt mean that im selfish)....i see her because of you.... and im not seeing her... i lose her because of U too.... Allah peliharalah persabahatan kami ini... sampai selama lamanya... ameen....

and to suria.... today... again...aku yg tak pernah bosan nak kata kat semua org.... SAYANG SURIA !!!!!! selamat hari jadi yg ke 20... sweet haa.... stay sweet and comel always.... if u need anything.... just call me... i can be your crying shoulder..... if i cant.. just remember that Allah can... and he'll be the best of all...

selamat hari jadi sayang... may Allah bless you... may all your dreams come true... insyaAllah... and if not... Allah knows better... and u'll get the best insyaAllah... coz u r the besttt.... buddy....!!!!
dipetik dari kajian mengenai bulan dan sifat manusia dari Dr. Fadzilah Kamsah... from the courtersy of mr. iznan's blog page...

aku senaraikan oktober jer laaa sbb lahir bulan oktober...

Oktober..
- suke berbual (btol kot... kalau kat uni jumpa org... mmg sembang... sungguhpun banyak lagi kerje.. pastu nak sedapkan hati... masa nih bukan kita yg punye.... Allah yg punye.. soo kene la kasik masa kat org...)
- suke or yg sayang padanya (ni common sense la kan... semua org suka org sayang kat kita.... tapi org in this context kene jelaskan lagi.. takkan la org sebarang jer yg kite sungguh2 suke bila dia sayang kat kita..)
- suka ambil jalan tgh (btol... instead of 2 years.. or 4 years... i take 3 years... heheh nih jalan tengah ke?????hheheheh )
- sangat menawan dan sopan santun... (sangat... tu yg tak tahan tu... entah... tak kot... hehheh)
- kecantikan luar dalam... ( makkk aiii dr. nih pun pandai memuji gak yek)
-tidak pandai berbohong dan berpura-pura (kurang betul kot... sbb debate ajar aku berbohong.... berpura-pura???? senyum even sedih... tu bukan berpura-pura ke... no komen la yg nih)
- mudah rasa simpati, baik dan mementingkan kawan (btol kot)
- sentiasa berkawan (context kawan kene jelaskan lagi... sbb kalau nak kire gang... aku tak dek gang... kawan jer ngan semua org... berkawan??? tak paham sgt)
- hatinya mudah terusik tapi merajuknya tak lama..( sgt betul)
- cepat marah ( btol)
- macam pentingkan diri sendiri...( sgt betul)
- tidak menolong org kecuali diminta ( btol kot ... tapi tgh nak didik diri... selalu tolong org)
- suka melihat dari perspektifnya sendiri (yup)
- tidak suka menerima pandangan org lain (btol kot... tapi tak dek la totally.. yg baik terima.. yg tah pape... alah tak pe la yek)
- suka berangan dan pandai bercakap... (berangan.. aku tgh cuba kurangkan... bercakap... tu la sbb suke berbual... cam diatas)
- emosi yg kelam kabut... ( ye kot... tapi tu dulu... sekarang.. lebih tenang)
- daya firasat yg sgt kuar (especially perempuan)( entah... tak pun)
-suka melancong, bidang sastera dan seni (melancong.. yup.. sastera and seni... entah)
- pengasih, penyayang dan lemah lembut (aduish.. sifat2 wanita sejati... aku??? ade ker??? hehehhe)
- romantik dalam percintaan (duh)
- mudah terusik hati dan cemburu (sangat betuullll)
- ambil berat ttg org lain (ya kot)
- suka kegiatan luar (thats why im doing geology)
- org yg adil (no komen.. subjective)
- boros dan mudah dipengaruhi persekitaran ( sgt betul.. tapi bergantung pd persekitaran yg ada... mood berubah ubah)
- mudah patah semangat...( ye kot.. kengkadang)

huh... memenda cam nih.... leh caya.. tapi jgn caya sgt.. hehhehe... ntah... personality.... yg baik dikekalkan.. yg buruk buang jauh jauh.. kan.... bye..

Saturday, April 26, 2003

assalamualaikum warahmatullah...

its been a long day today.... with full of information.... after more than a year..... i finally had a strength to open up the bible that had been kept somewhere in the wardrobe.... the college provide it in every rooms..... i wonder why are they so besemangat on spreading what they thing right why we muslims.... soo..... lemah gile... utk spread the word of God..... the true religion.... even worse we are not potray it in our daily lives.... why kimah why.... ???????

the train the trainer course is very good...... it gives me difference approach of daawah..... the thing i like most about today course is.... the comparative religon..... let me quote something that i wrote .... and remember from the talk just now.... brother faiyaz... then continue with brother riyad gave the talk......

in Islam... we believe in one God... in Al-Ikhlas its cleary stated that... there is no deity worthy of worship except Allah.... that nothing else posseses the perfect attributes of the Eternal Absolute creator.... tha He does not beget nor was He begotten..... that is nothing comparable to Him...... we have try so hard to understand the word of akeedah.... Rasulullah daawah kat mekah.... 13 years.... hanya semata mata akidah mentauhidkan Allah..... Allah maha esa.... Allah unique.... Allah immagineable.... nothing is comparable to Allah.... Allah maha mengetahui.... bijaksana..... mendengar .... melihat..... Allah maha kuasa.... Allah berkuasa on everything..... so... thats what we believe as a muslim....

then the Christian concept of God... where to start.... i think the trinity concept.... they believe in the father which is the creator... the son... which is the jesus.... and the holy spirit... (i dont know what the hell it is)... so this 3 different entity form as 1 god.... duh.... how come... but this concept of trinity does not explain in the old testament.... they were trying to explain trinity as a logical concept... so they give eg such as egg(shell, yolk, albumen).... shell or yolk or ablumen can alone be refered to as the egg.... they are all different substances that come together to form an entity called egg.... second... 1 god+1 god+ 1 god = 1 god.... this is doesnt make sense... if u give this equations to kindy kid... they surely can point out what is wrong... but provided... this is what the believe... another analogy.... about... 1 angle + 1 angle + 1 angle = triangle... duh... why dont u say it 1 angle.... as oppose to 1 god....

the some problems arises...
1. intercession by a perfect or imperfect being??????
they believe that one of the major roles of jesus is that of being a mediator btwn god and man.... god is perfect and completely holy and pure... whil man is imperfect... stained by sin and impure (this is what they belive that the baby was born with inherited sin).... man is therefor not fit to be accepted into god's glory or presence.... hence the need of jesus thse son of god (who is both devine yet human???) to intercede.... in short.. god is 100% pure cannot accept man who is say 90% pure... the is therefore the need for someone else... ie jesus... to intercede or come in btwn.... but the problem is....

is jesus 100% pure... ?????? if he is not then he has also fallen short of god's 100% glory and is therefore imperfect and not completely pure..... so.... he therefore need intercession for himself.... buttttttt if jjesus if 100% pure... then is he like god... can a person be like totally pure and at the same time not totally pure??? it doesnt make sense.... !!!!!!!!

they also belive about the original sin inherited form Adam and Eve.... is it really reasonable to believe that any sin can be inherited??? is it rightous to believe that the Most Merciful will punish little children in hell for some so-called "inherited sin" which someone eles in the history committed which is believed not to have been forgiven??? then.... how they believe that jesus... is being devine... yet also son.... how can a god... which is no beginning... and end.... and yet has a beginning... then die so has an end.... becoz of our sin.... crapp....ya Allah... berilah aku petunjuk... ke jalan yg benar.... ameen.....

i dont know what to say.... sorry if i confused u.... not me who confuse all this things.... its them who make up their own stories... to suit their own needs.... if u dont understand then u actually understand..... that is what brother riyad told us.... hehehhehe now i know why all these atheist and humanists exist on earth.... coz of all these complication about who to worship who is the god... and everything... so they just throw everything away..... there is no god..... end of story.....

but the atheist is actually have believe in half part of the kalimah syahadah..... record it again.... la ilaha illalah..... there is no God except God (Allah).... so they have except it with there is no God.... but they leave their heart empty.... they manage to throw everything away.... but the didnt fill it with something.....some atheist do feel that their heart is empty..... "sometimes it doesnt feel right when u got no way to turn to.... it feel so depressive"..... so alhamdulillah im being a Muslim.... if not.... i dont know whether im still a muslim or not.... thank you Allah for this great gift u give me... alhamdulillah....

so come the conclusion is.... crap.. crap... crap... doesnt make sense.... and everything about crappy thing.... semoga Allah beri hidayah kpd mereka semua....

Azizah... shes a reverted muslim that i know last year.... alhamdulillah i think she has been practising Islam.... better than i did.... she get through all of this hatric from her brother about Islam... from her grandmother about Islam.... i asked her why did she reverted.... and she says a lot of things.... but she starts thinking what are these freaky people doing .... not eat during ramadhan.... and starts from there.... the struggle to surrender begin...... almost a year... reading... and questionaing muslim about Islam... she was actually join the indonesian silat course...... then i asked her.... what is the turning point of you actually reverted yourself.... Ash hadu alla ilhalillah wa ashadu anna muhammadarasulullah..... thats it .... its the turning point.... end of the story... if im not muslim at this moment.... im dont know whether im diying as a muslim or not.......subhanallah.... kalimah syahadah jugak yg punya kekuatan plg besar... masyaAllah......

Nurul Ain... another australian reverted muslim.... her name was sharleen.... she was reverted in perkim malaysia.... masyaAllah siapa sangka a trip to malaysia..... bagi hidayah kat dia..... shes actually a tourist.... then went to perkim... learn more about Islam... and finally menyerahkan diri pd... Allah.... ya Allah.... siapa pun boleh dpt hidayah Kau..... antara umar al-khatab... dan abu jahal... Kau pilih umar..... Abu Talib kau tak pandang pun..... Bilal the slave jugak yg dpt....belambak penghapal hadith and quran omputih kat uk .... cambridge uni... tapi hidayah tu tak sampai jugak..... kat malaysia.... berapa ramai sgt la org cine masuk Islam... boleh bilang ngna jari tiap2 taun... padahal belambak org muslim kat sane... pasai ape... pasai kita laa tak buat keje.......

jaga la nikmat Islam dan iman yg dah ada nih..... betapa susahnya org2 kristian.... hindu.... and sesape tah lagi.... nak dpt Islam... yg plg sedih.... agama seniri pun tak paham..... aduishhh terima jer..... betapa susah nye derang jgn kata dpt.... malah kenal Islam.. pun susah.... umat Islam yg ada kat bumi aussie nih..... aargghhhh jgn kata kat bumi aussie nih.... kat memane pun same.... malaysia ka... us ka....... sama 2 kali 5 jer mcm depa..... duk pakai baju same2.... dok clubbing sesame.... lifestyle pun lebih kurang same jer... cam burung...... yg sedih duk tonggang arak sesame tu.... cam mane laa derang nak nampak nur Islam...cam mane la derang nak paham Islam.... cam mane la derang nak kenal Islam..... ya Allah..... terima kasih tak terhingga..... semoga kita yg dah Islam sejak lahir nih dpt jaga nikmat nih sampai mati.... ameen..... jazakallah....


Friday, April 25, 2003

assalamualaikum....

kitty, (nih yg anne frank tulis dlm diary dia.... dia panggil diary dia kitty.... aku nak panggil ape ehh...??)

starts in the morning.... i just eat slice of mudcake... and a mug of milk.... apsal hari nih tak rase lapar..... a friend of mine cakap...makan... nanti perut masuk angin.... sorry la brother... tak dek rase nak makan plak ari nih.... then.... i went to the alumni book fair without eating anything.... i went at quarter past twelve.... hati cakap : ok balik nanti baru makan laa....

wow... the book fair was superp.... the books range from everything..... young readers..... until textbooks.... all subjects..... u can get a good book for 1 to 2 bucks.... firstly i went to the geology books..... wow.... i took almost 20 books.... geology and remote sensing.... then..... i finalise the books coz u have to carry it home.... 10 geology books.... The geology of europe 2 bucks... field geologists' manual... 2 bukcs.... geology of petroleum ... intoruction to petrology..... optical mineralogy .... mineral optics.... earth resources.... geology of ipswish and brisbane area.... geology and lanscape of queensland.... and a dictionary of geology..... prices range from 1 bucks... to 2.50..... pretty cool ha...

then... i went to the memorable item.... the stamps that i looked yesterday was gone.... nahhh its all right.... then... i went to the cookery and family part.... i almost took all the cook books... but... i only took 3.... after realizing that not all the recepies are reliable... the 3 that i took was from the Australian Womens Weekly mag.... normally recepies from here are reliable.... so.... i took 3.... 2 books for microwave cooking.... and another one.... guess what..??? the GREAT CAKES.....hehhehehhe i also look at some handicraft and knitting books... wanna grap them... but.... i already have a lot of books.... so... maybe tomorrow.... insyaAllah will go again....

then i went to hobbies.... i wonder what do the have in the hobbies area.... u know what i found... i found.... range of photography books... ohh vivien ... i cant help myself seeing all this book please help me pick one..... then i finally pick.. the encyclopedia of photography... so i have 2 photography books now.... one is daddy's.... sebelum klik... hehehhe... i loughed at him when he showed me this book..... i never thought that u actually buy this kind of book.... on thing about ayah is.... when he likes something.... he'll do anything to understand it.... he bought the first malay photography book... which i think pretty impressive.... he wanna buy.... books about the computers.... to understand it... but i said... i can teach u... its really easy .... heheheh then he put it back... vivien....ask me about why am i like and know a lot of things about camera.. and photography.... i said... it is from daddy..... when he was my age... he use to like it a lot.... so.... i guess... this is from him... heheh terima kasih ayah... u have a lot of good qualities in yourself....

ok back to the story.... then.... 14 books.... more than 30cm tebal in total... with 5 to 6 hardcover book.... i brought them home in a big box.... 14 books for 24 bucks.... its really a worth investment.... when i walked... my pain is getting worse... plus without eating proper food.... ya Allah jgn la bagi aku fainted tgh jalan.... ameen.... i finally get home.... bau masakan huda... sedap seyhhh... but sorry huda... i cant take anything at the moment..... lie on the bed... with my feet up.... she gave me honey... then... a few minutes later... i feel like vomitting everything i ate... (hahhahah what did i eat).... so i just sit in front of the toilet bowl.... try to vomit.... but nothing came out from my stomach.... after that... alhamdulillah.... much better.... the trick for this kind of pain is.... just eat what u wanna eat... eat... anything... whether or not u feel like eating or not.... then... vomit everything u eat.... then ull be fine insyaAllah... and alhamdulillah today... i didnt take the pain killer.... alhamdulillah thats the best part....

hehehhehe cam anearoxia la plak.... eat and then throw it up.... but thats how i survive.... alhamdulillah.... sakit Allah nak ampun kan dosa nih.... banyk sgt buat dosa dah.... thats it for today.... ok i want to eat.... my lunch+ dinner meal.... alhamdulillah dpt housemate yg rajin cam huda.....

thank you huda cook for me... u've been my loveliest... and the most sweet... and the kindest housemate i ever had.... (i only had her as my housemate eversince i'm here..) hehehheheh .... thank you darling for being my housemate.... kalau bukan kau... entah sape la nak jadi housemate aku.... huh....

Thursday, April 24, 2003

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jiwang la plak... aduishh....nih lagu yg bergenang ditelinga semenjak 2 3 minggu yg lalu.... kalah la butterfly... cant take that away mariah carey aku tuu..... which is on the other hand .... ok la jugak...... hehehhe......

Tuesday, April 15, 2003

Saturday, April 12, 2003

yoo... assalamualaikum warahmatullah... wats up... aku tgh penat...cari map tak jumpe.... siakap senohong btol.... tak pe sabar... nak wat cam mane... kene gune imaginasi seniri la... nak buat reference... aka... tiru... tak dek plak.... sungguhletih... sabar kimah sabar.... mlm nih mr aziz dtg.... huh.....whatever... get back to your work kimah... bye....

Wednesday, April 09, 2003

selesema... alhamdulillah getting better.... prac class today... i buat menda plg bijak ari nih.... taking the paracetamol before going to the class..... coz the doc said it wont make me sleepy... it was a bit weird actually coz.... usually paracetamol will make u sleepy..... so i took it.... it does make me sleepy.... in the structural class... i cant even open up my eyes... duh..... so everyone knows that im sick.... vivien lough at me everytime i try my best to open up my eyes..... dah la mmg mata kecik.... rod... the lecturer said... u look very sick.... so i just said .... i am sick..... i go back 15 minutes early.... after 2 hours and 45 minutes.... i dont even finish the second exercise... i have another one... the most complecated one..... duh.... finish it tonight....

then balik umah..... terus tido.... suddenly it was 2.... ya Allah test..... rushing to the class.... luckily they just started.... kurt ask me.... are u ok to take the test... i said im fine... alhamdulillah the test is not that hard... and i feel a bit better after that.... claire... my cousemate... also sick.... she's even worse than me .... she ask me why do i look so tired... is said probably because of the paracetamol that i took this morning..... but the dr. said im not suppose to get sleepy.... claire said.... u wont if u used to take it.... are u use to take it kima..... hahhahaha no wonder i feel so tired.... if im sick.... i dont normally take paracetamol....normally honey and lemon will do.... even it takes almost entire week to get well but.... im avoiding myself to take any drugs..... morfein.... one they usually put in the pain killer.... but now.... i have a lot of things to do.... so i have to get well soon as fast as i can.... insyaAllah by tomorrow and friday... i'll be fine.... ameen...

..... hehhehe kurt also sick..... so..... 5 minutes of the class we discuss about sick people..... thats it..... alhamdulillah i feel a bit better now.... continue the unfinish prac... heheh know what... rod.... make a photocopy of my cross section and put it in the notice board... as the sample answer to last prac question..... he said to me.... u make me ashamed of myself... uve done better than i did.... what a best compliment... but that it is just after i consulted him how to do.... so .... u r still the master mate.... hehheh... jgn tenggelam dgn pujian... eventhough org putih kalau puji mmg puji btol.... tapi.... just said... alhamdulillah.... then get back to normal.... jgn selalu diawang awangan... hehhe

if i had a chance to further my study... i want to do structural geology... coz it is so much fun.... yeah... fun.... adventure.... exciting.... chalengging.... everything about structural u name it.....

Tuesday, April 08, 2003

assalamualaikum warahmatullah
hello dear... me... my flu is even worse than yesterday.... probably bcoz we went and buy the groceries... at night.... so cold nowadays.... i think in a few days onwards... we have to start using heater... ive made an appointment with the doctor just now..... only 12.45 tgh available today.... probably all have been booked... a lot of people getting cold... fever and flu nowadays.... maybe of the unpredictable weather....and infection from others.... ive finished my mineralogy review with the text book.... but i have to go to the library to get the other book that kurt usually use.... it explains well in the optical part.... insyaAllah... i hope tomorrow's test is not as bad as last week..... not that its too bad.... but im not confident with my answers... not that i always confident with it.... its just.... u dont feel good about it... thats it...

chating with a friend just now.... talking about all the good qualities .... vivien said.... i have a natural talent in geology.... hahahha.... alhamdulillah... if it is from Allah.... aku bersyukur dgn menda tu.... kalau pun tidak.... aku syukur jugak dgn apa yg Dia dah bagi... banyak sgt dah... tak larat den nak mintak.... nih sakit nih pun.... malu rasa nya nak mintak sembuh.... ntah.... apsal.... im always asking for this and that.... everything is never enough for me.... duh.... nak mintak kat orang .... first time pun malu.... nih kat Allah... dah banyak kali lak tu..... ya Allah... ampunkan dosaku.... kalau sakit nih utk ampunkan dosa..... aku redha jer laa berapa lama pun dia nak go on...... baik terima azab kat dunia nih dari azab akhirat... boleh tak cam nih???? ntah.....

haa talking about natural talent in geology... basically vivien ask me to apply the vacation work... pretty interesting though.... u get to work outstation.... if with the mim... probably at mt isa.... at the lead and silver... mine..... with the anglo coal.... up north jugak aku rasa.... santos.... kat atas gak.... kat sana banyak basin.... bowen basin.... ape tah lagi basin2 yg derang ada......wow.... seronok kalau dpt..... i dont care about how much money or they didnt pay u anything... as long as they pay my accommodation and transportation.... thats it.... makan.... pet nyer duit ada... ape nak risau...im not very with food either.... i can eat bread.... and u can have milk for protein.... rice.... i think i can still handle it for a few weeks... at the lodge dulu pun..... boleh bilang ngan jari bape kali makan nasi.... so... that shouldnt be a big problem to me..... but i dont think i can easily get the job....

ye laaa those big company they dont want to invest in nothing.... this girl for sure..... dia nak balik after shes graduate.... serving for her country.... why should we bother teaching and mentoring her.... so..... just have a go.... kalau ada rezeki insyaAllah dpt..... when we discussing about this topic... viven said... i wont have any problem with the first stage of selection.... if i can maintain this result.... insyaAllah...plus kurt cam suke kat aku.... ahahhaha lawak takk???

kurt is my mineralogy lecturer... hes the course coordinator for last year.... dia nih hensem maut nyer.... hahahha setelah sekian lama aku tak minat orang laki.... tapi last year... when i first saw this guy... obviously in the lecture..... wow... six peg.... macho giler... hensem lak tu.... huh mase tu semua orang kenal kurt....sarah yg tak dek kene mengene pun..... gi lecture aku .... semata2 aku nak tunjuk kurt yg mana satu... hahahha... belajar kimah...... he is a good lecturer.... he makes me think of a lot of things.... the kaitan btwn manusia and earth.... all sort of stuff... maybe the way he lecture us.... and dia nih rock..... masa mid term exam.... ada ke patut.... antara pilihan jawapan yg dia kasik..... fat bastard.... austin power mojo..... fire from hell.... etc.... hehhehe.... kitorang exam bukan kat central... coz he said... he wants to see all of us... doing the exam... kalau buat kat central dia tak leh jaga..... kasik exam.... best gile.... u dont have to show ur student card.... even....dia tinggalkan kitorang dlm lecturer room tu buat exam.... guys i want to go next door.... to distribute this paper to second year student.... so.... dont cheat.... then jalan kuar... pastu patah balik.... if u wanna cheat.... dont too loud.... and make sure i cant see u.... another thing.... the camera.... wahhh kagum aku..... mmg tak dek sape pun yg cheat... tapi timing dia tak kesah sgt..... masa practical exam.... 2 hours and half rasenye kitorang buat... dia pun tak sedar.... hehehhe that is kurt....

dlm lecture dia suke tanye soalan.... tapi tak tanye one by one la..... tapi aku yg duk depan nih... mmg sentiase menyupport kurt ... dikala oang lain sumer diam jer.... aku jawab la mana yg aku tau.... pastu ... sampai... oang lain pun sedar... kalau dia tanya soalan mesti dia pandang aku... tak pun andrew... sorang lagi mamat class aku.... i think he has relationship with kurt... sbb derang mmg baik gile... muke pun lebey kuang.... maybe his brother or something... tapi kurt lagi hensem.... hehheheh pastu sampai aku pun tunduk jer kalau dia tanya aku.....and i dont know the answer... hahahha....tu citer mineralogy nye class.... kurt still hensem... tapi... aku tak dek dah la minat kat dia.... citer lame.... hahahhahah.....

Monday, April 07, 2003

assalamualaikum...
smile smile... everlasting smile... coz smile can bring u near to me.... tha... im in the library.... biol sc.... i havent been here for ages .... booked a room for the halaqah.... the room at phys sc.... full.... i should have booked it last week when i just finished the halaqah... but alhamdulillah.... theres one available in biol sc.... i guess all the biologist doesnt like discussing stuff compare to the methamatition and physist.... probably..... they are nerdy people staying at home studying... and remembering all the microbiological... and medicine stuff... but the medical library is not here.... soo.... whatever....

shorncliffe was fine... alhamdulillah we managed to finish.... not all of the measurement... coz vivien forgot to bring her tape measurement.... huh.... we end up counting in feet.... american style haa...... start working on the maps tomorrow.... insyaAllah.... i had a flu today.... asbab.... probably becoz of the sea breeze..... so cold up there..... and infection from vivien... and huda maybe.... thaaa... Allah wants to give it.... so i got it... semoga dosaku diampun kan... ameen....

today.... cover the structural geology stuff.... a lot of terms... and whatever..... i hope i can manage it.... insyaAllah... come on kimah.... selesema nih tak mampu menghalang kau utk buat keje.... go ..... hehheheh ...... mineralogy test on wednesday..... tonight... thats tonight's work.... no chating... hahah can u actually handle this??? the phsycologist said.... if u do the same thing.... 21 days.... itll become ur habit.... but i think.... not only 21 days.... itll be a habit for stuff like chating.... bergayuting... if u r doing it... let say.... 10 days in max.... then u cant get urself out of it..... so.... minimise it... but if ia membawa kebaikan why not.... so depends on certain circumstances..... at this moment... we have to know what is pririority... and .... what is.... leisure.... kehendak dan keperluan.... for me.... u can do it as much as u want.... but.... when it starts to melalaikan kau.... cut the crap.... thats it.... lambat solat ke.... gi uni lambat ke.... tak buat keje ke..... kurangkan laa.... ala common sense maaa....

time past by so fast.... today its april.... wow...... just imagine what had happened a last few months.... nothing much happened in malaysia.... driving licence.... as usual.... but the last 2 weeks was really a thrill to me... hahahah.... alhamdulillah i didnt jump off the creek comitting suicide... heheh ill never do that for no reason... even if i have a reason on doing so.... ill never do that.... its like jumping into the hell..... someone give an idea of bungy jumping when i go to new zealand... no way man.... im not that type of person.... im a bit fraid of height.... i think... coz.... last year when i did rock climbing.... huh... only halfway through... tgk bawah... cuak beb.... rasa nak terjun time tu jugak jer..... ok thats it for rock climbing..... tapi dah jadi geologist nih..... i did a few rock climbing last weekend.... thrill la jugak.... especially when u bring the bulky camera..... with ur knapsack contain ur lunch box.... plus the clipboard.... in ur hand.... and a pencil.... mane nak pegang.... at this moment aku syukur gile how Allah had made me small.... kirenye kalau jatuh momentum tak besar sgt... hehehhe..... tapi sakit gak laa... coz ull never know what ur falling on to..... sbb bawah tu ade rox..... kalau sand lawa tak pe... nih eroded.... wheatered sedimentary rox..... with angular conglomerate and breccia... duh.... be careful mate... hehehhe

hehehhe whatelse... it seems like i have a lot of idea just now when walking from the dorothy hills building... but suddenly blank... heheh after dah type banyak nih leh blank plak.... duh.... senyum seindah suria yg membawa cahya senyum la dari hati dunia mu berseri.... senyum umpama impian dlm kehidupan... kau tersenyum ku tersenyum kemesraan menguntum... senyum... kepada semua... senyuman mu amat lah berharga senyum ..... sebagai hiasan dgn senyuman terjalinlah ikatan.... hari nih kempen senyum.... sakit senyummm... sedih senyum..... marah senyum..... tido senyum??? nanti oang kata angau la plak.... so... the best way is senyum bertempat... hahahha ok... adios amigos.... tschuss.....



Saturday, April 05, 2003

assalamualaikum warahmatullah
hehheh now im wearing the hat that i bought yesterday... pretty cool ha... with uq sign on it... i bought blue.... coz blue is cool.... ok i wanna share this thing.... " best thing are free... air... water... rain... etc... but the best thing i had is you... friend means to understand each other... to care... to share even to love...." hehheh sejak bile aku pandai ber madah berhelah nih... whatever... just a thought for the day... ishq cam christian lak... ada thought for the day...

so at 12 nanti aku gerak gi shorncliffe.... field trip.... but i hasnt started the drawing yet... you know what am i doing right now.... chatting.... huh.... dah jumpa member lama mmg la tak reti nak stop.... ok.... i have interesting topic to type yesterday... but... kiv dulu utk esok... coz... feeling very tired... and i need a good rest... soo i just sleep ....
its abt pujuk... hehhe... girls are really sinonim with merajuk... and when it comes to guys... derang cakap derang tak reti nak pujuk..... merajuk and pujuk.... bagi aku....tu menda yg mengada ngada... even though aku selalu la jugak merajuk.... but actually u can choose... to merajuk or not..... kalau agak2 ada orang yg nak pujuk... merajuk laa... pastu tambah wrinkle on your face.... heheh so... just stay calm.... je la.... bagi orang yg nak pujuk plak.... pujuk nih bukan skill yg boleh belajar kat skola... skill tu dtg seniri.... alah apa susah... once bila kita dah buat orang sakit hati... or terasa hati.... u can feel it deep dwn in your heart.... there is something wrong with it.... bila kita jaga hati orang... insyaAllah orang akan jaga hati kita.... its not just apply to someone significant to us.... spouse... close friends ... housemate... it applies to everybody.... friends at work... everybody... sbb tu skill minta maaf.... kalau salah kena la minta maaf.... kengkadang oang tak sedar dia buat salah....so kalau cam aku.... senang.... wei aku tak puas hati ngan kau... kuang hajar la tu.... nih dah lebey.... haa kan senang... tapi steng orang.... tak reti... dia diam je... simpan je... aku pun kengkadang... aku tak cakp gak.... tunggu cool baru aku cakap.... kengkadang nak cakap on the spot... put kau tak berdaya..... and kengkadang.... langsung tak cakpa terus.... simpan seniri je la... ape aku merepek nih....

tapi conclusion.... is... when u hurt somebody... ask for fogiveness... and when people's hurt you.... tell them if u want them to ask for forgiveness... even tell them so that kemesraan terjalin.... coz... people tend to say good words... but when it comes to hurting each other... they keep it.... friends are the one that u can share everything... not only the good but the bad things also.... so when u tell them... its kind of breaking the boundary... insyaAllah.... but when u didnt tell them.... just assume that they didnt know... and keep that away of your mind.... give them another chance.....coz maybe its from satan... that want your ukhwah.... to be split... so pray to Allah ...... agar He jaga your friendship.... and ukhwawh.... insyaAllah Allah will jage the friendship.... ameen....

thats it... better i get to my work.... lot of them actually.... vivien wants me to cook for her... im thinking of cooking nasi lemak... but i dont have any cucumber .... probably we just eat with the sambal and telur..... but they are a lot of leftovers from yesterday.... i see what i can do to it...

Friday, April 04, 2003

yoo.... im so tired... baru balik dari umah salwa... birthday party... huh.... but i dont know how old is she.... hehehhe i gave her a ayatul kursi frame.... dah tak dek dah frame cam tu kat bilik aku... sume dah kasik kat orang.... tak pe..... nanti balik mesia boleh beli lagi.... ya Allah.... tadi dah gabak gile... student card tak dek.... tergamam aku duk depan library.... kunci dah nak kuar nih.... huh.... the librian.... look at me... do you have any id.... ya Allah... im afraid i only have this... showing my atm card.... huh kat mane la aku campak student id nih.... then nasib baik she let me in... alhamdulillah.... so had a normal halaqah..... talking about the angel.... this topic is really interesting... but we should have prepared more..... then... huda told about khadijah... and how she married muhammad... it was so sweet.... always dreaming having a husband like muhammad.... but im not comparable to khadijah..... teringin nak dpt suami sehebat ali..... tapi aku tak sehebat fatimah..... terigin nak kawin ngan orang sehensem yusof.... tapi aku tak selawa zulaikha.... so..... always seek guidance... for Allah will give u the best.... insyaAllah..... maybe someone who as handsome as yusof (which is very very unlikely to find one)..... will not be the best for you.... insyaAllah.... ask for the best from Allah......
ok go back to my ID story..... dlm bas balik dari umah salwa..... ligat pala otak pk.... where did i put the id.... ok.... place to search.... kamera case.... tong sampah..... dug up everything.... huh.... alhamdulillah it was in my camera case.... so.... tenang sket jiwa raga.... alhamdulillah....

so thats the story for today.... this thing is kinda sweet... hahhaha....get ready for tomorrow field trip.... pre mapping the place..... compass.... what else..... colour pencil.... pencil.... camera...
assalamualaikum...
pagi jumaat yg damai.... sungguh damai... dgn kicauan burung.... but kedamaian tak lame... burung tu cam berlawan with the construction site.... lantak pi laaa.... janji aku damai.... how did i got into this menda.... i dont know... its all because of huda.... actually a lot of people had introduced this to me.... im so lazy to know more about this... since huda had her own blog.... and practically she uses my computer to access to her blog... sometimes..... then.... i was practically learn this from her.... its not that hard..... even... if u teach a kindy kid... theyll know how to do it.... thaa....
soo... whats the perpose of me posting what i do in this jurnal of.... whatever..... i dont know actually..... emmmm.... guest try this for a week and see how things goes.... then.... maybe ull go on.... or just stop.... its also not that hard to delete this stuff... hehehhe ;D