feeling tired
hearing to subshine
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hari nih entry panjang sket ... hehehhe

freaking out

wake up early again... but today not from any calls... hehhehe yesterday someone from japan wake me up at 4am... and another friend of mine from france wake me up at 7.30 am... hehhehe as usual... study... exam la katakan...
i was doing the past year's exam that is actually kitorang tak leh excess to it... but suddenly the library make a mistake... they put november 2000 punye paper... and alhamdulillah we went to the library and copy it... vivien and me actually... so this morning i was trying to do it.... suddenly aku rase tak sedap hati....

i call k amy... ask her about a few things... i dont want thing to came out like in mineralogy.... have a chat with her... letak je tepon... mmg debaran makin terasa.... to reduce it... i drank a lot of water... almost every 15 minutes i went to the toilet... especially when huda went to take her econs paper.... makin lama makin berdebar... i keep saying to myself....
ehhhh ape nih kimahh... sabar... its gonna be fine.... dont worry Allah will always be with u.... sambil urut2 dada.... seriously.... feeling dia lagi teruk dari feeling duk dlm bilik kuarantin nak gi debate... ntah... 3pm... i finish the first half... amik wudhu... solat asar.... sambung balik.... 5pm.... alhamdulillah i finish everything... ok... solat maghrib.... then.... me off to the exam room....
the debaran makin rancak.... dgn kesejukan malam tu.... ya Allah permudahkan lah aku....

the exam
alhamdulillah... 40% of the question yg keluar is from the past exam paper that we accidently got it.... betul cakap huda... sbb tu lecturer tu tanak releasekan soalan tu... sbb dia nak keluarkan balik.... tapi im not like fully confident... sbb soalan yg keluar mostly soalan mapping... and mapping punye soalan... u cant get the right answer in the book.... it base on what u interpret.... so... insyaAllah kalau ada rezeki adalah tu.... so... i feel really... i mean really really release this time... when back home... thanking Allah for the hidayah that He gave me so that i went to school and meat vivien.... (sbb mule2 aku malas gile nak pegi)....

sampai umah... im really hungry... we eat nothing for today... ajak huda gi makan... tapi kedai mane la yg bukak mlm2 cam nih... alah hawken drive je la... hehehhe almost three years... i live in brisbane.. this is the first time i eat at hawken drive.... which is just like 15 minutes walking from my house... kimah2.... najwa pun gelakkan aku... huda: kimah nih dia tak suke makan kat luar sgt....
heheheh aah aku tak gemar sgt... sekali sekala boleh la... tapi... im not use to it... id rather eat plane rice with keropok goreng... or a telur goreng tu pun dah cukup besar rahmat dah....

makan

aku rase bab makan aku tak fussy sgt... apa yg ada makan lah... bila terigin beli lah.. pastu balik rumah masak seniri... hehehhe but i usually take eating for granted... especially at this sort of time... fact aku makan lambat... aku rase di kalangan budak2 petronas ... aku still pegang the record... dulu masa kat foundation.... aku selalu bersaing ngan farid sape makan lagi lambat... aku la yg menang.. sbb dia makan lambat makan banyak... aku.... mmg jenis slow... hehhe.... dulu masa kat skolah... lenguh seyyy mulut kunyah cepat2... budak2 kelas suke nak tinggalkan aku sbb derang kata aku makan lambat sgt.... tapi nasik aku amik seciput je... dila selalu tanye... kimah kau kire yek bape kali ko kunyah makanan tu... heheh... dila dila....
tapi kalau makan choc... ngan ice cream... aku menang laa... hehhehe laju je.... hehheh

britney spears
balik dari dining... aku layan huda ngan najwa tgk konsert britney kat las vegas... waduhhhh seksi sungguh minah tu skarang.... seksi... i mean sgt2 7000 kali... mmmmm entah laa malas nak komen...

sunshine

ciki letak lagu nih kat blog dia... cool ciki... aku pun suke gak lagu nih... hehhehe tu laahhhh pasal.... sometimes dengar2 lagu cam nih.... leh buat kita up sket... ntah....tu theory je... aku bnyk lagu theme dulu.... skang nih pun... dedicate2 lagu nih pun best gak... so ciki.... sunshine through my window ... thats what u r... my shining star... making me feel ... im on top of the world....
kau sinar harapan... kau permata... heheh tu versi siti.... cool...

competition: asian vs australian

"i dont give a damn about it... i just need 9% to pass the exam... "..."i hope i just get through the exam"..."its only worth 2%... dont be too upset if u dont get it.."

something that i always hear... especially from the mouth of people who called themselves australian.... what about them? since i move into uni... sometimes i feel depressive... sometimes u just hate the people around u... some of them always take things for granted... to just want a barely pass attitude... to just do it for the sake of doing it... for the sake of attempt it...

first time i notice this senario last year... when we have to do a study about geology of brisbane area... my group mates... 2 australians and a danish.... the danish girl... shes really smart... self centered... bossy... kind of girl... the two australians...have this barely pass attitude... "oooo im pretty happy if we just get 7/10"... why are they behaving like this...

australian has a population of 21 million people... from last year census... work are easily accessible in australia... they are highly paid... 12 dollars for an hour for average cleaner... and 7 dollars for trainee kitchen hand and waitress... that is big enough for a single people that dont have to worry about accommodation ... especially if they are living with their parents... even... unemployed people get paid 400 dollar per month....its really easy for the australian to get in uni... a girl age 27 have flunk twice but she still being accepted to uni at the age of 25....

malaysian... in contrast.... we live in a small country with many people... unemployment rate is very high in malaysia... even with a engineering degree.... there is no work guarantee for you... immigration rate from indonesia.. bangladesh... thailand.. is extreamely high... a lot of competition... kuala lumpur is a chaos city... so... once u get the chance to do it... it probably the only chance u have... this happen in a lot of asian country.... singapore... hong kong... korea.... japan... high competition... but is it actually the competion... and competitiveness attitude that the asian have that make them on top? they are not always on top...

maybe exam oriented minded of these malaysian... asian student have.... since i was 6... my dad always motivate me with something else if i get a good result... until i got 8As for pmr... he stoped offering these prices to me.... at that time... i just feel like i have to try my best.... i dont know why... but...

kalau bekerja ... bekerja lah seolah olah kita akan hidup 1000 lamanya dan beribadatlah seolah olah kita mati esok hari...

jadi... instead of saying that... asian versus australian... i would love to say.... if u have good faith in Him... u gonna do well in everything insyaAllah... the environment got nothing to do with ur performance... u are the one who shape the environment... Allahuakbar...