Friday, March 14, 2008

A Gate to a New Oppurtunity

PRU12 menyaksikan pelbagai kejutan. TERKEJUT??? Tidak ada apa yang mengejutkan. Mungkin ya bagi pihak yang dahulunya memerintah di beberapa negeri. TERKEJUT kerana pertama kali mahu jadi pembangkang. TERKEJUT kerana ingatkan sokongan masih pada mereka. Pelbagai spekulasi yang telah dibuat, cuba menganalisis faktor KEKALAHAN yang TERBURUK itu.
Bagi mereka yang turun ke medan, pengalaman PRU-12 sangat bermakna. Bagaimana kakak-kakak, dan anak-anak turun untuk mendengar ceramah yang selama ini dilabelkan haram. Tetap kental walaupun di dalam hujan. Orang Cina tanpa segan silu dan takut-takut berdiri di hadapan masjid menyebarkan pamphlet. Orang India dengan bangganya mengibarkan bendera parti lambang islam. Tanpa sesen pun wang ringgit yang ditaburkan. Semua bergerak, bersatu "saffan kaan nahum bunianun marsus", dengan satu lingua franca - KEADILAN dan KEMANUSIAAN.
Alhamdulillah, jika perjuangan itu berlandaskan untuk menegakkan keadilan dan Kemanusiaan, antara prinsip islam yang terbesar itu, maka Allah telah berikan kemenangan bagi mereka-mereka yang menolong agama Allah.
Namun ia tidak terhenti dengan menang. Bahkan mengisi kemenangan itu adalah perkara yang lebih menyesakkan. Bantuan dana mungkin akan dihentikan ke 5 buah negeri ini. (BN hanya meletakkan kepala di tempat pancungan jika mereka terus melaksanakan agenda ini) Media perdana sudah beralih kiblat, jika dua minggu yang sudah tidak habis-habis menayang dan mempromosikan barisan nasional, kini mereka tidak sudah-sudah cuba mewujudkan propaganda kepada Barisan Alternatif. PAS dan DAP tidak boleh bersatu. etc....
Ramai rakan-rakan menyuarakan kerisauan.
"Macam mana ni, DAP menang banyak kerusi?"
"Kebanyakkan peguam IFC adalah orang DAP"
dan kerisauan ini tidak sudah-sudah.
As-SAFF dan Pilihanraya.
Sudahkah kita lupa surah yang selalu kita baca ini. Di kala penat di jalan yang kita yakini ini, surah ini kita lagukan. Lalu mengalirlah air mata kita dari sudut-sudut hati kita yang basah. Lupakah kita asbab turunnya surah yang begitu indah ini.
Ketika di Mekah, orang islam kena tindas teruk, sampai ada suara-suara yang bertanya bila nak berjihad. Tiba di Madinah, Allah perintah jihad, ada pula suara-suara yang tanya "kenapa kena berjihad time ni". As-Saff turun untuk bersihkan hati orang mukmin.
Macam kita, dulu kita janji macam-macam, turun harga minyak, turun tol, turun harga barang... apabila kita memerintah. Sekarang kita sudah memerintah... tunaikan janji-janji kita.
Dulu setelah selesai satu demi satu daurah, kita bertanya "Bagaimana nak berdakwah kepada bukan muslim, Kaum cina terutamanya?" Dan pelbagai lagi soalan. Sekarang Allah bagi kita peluang bekerjasama dengan bukan muslim itu, dan menang dengan bukan muslim itu atas lingua franca yang sama. Mengapa kita takut dengan mereka? Mereka juga manusia biasa, yang menginginkan ketenangan, keadilan, dan hak-hak kemanusiaan mereka dikembalikan. Mengapa kita seakan-akan termakan dengan propaganda yang dua minggu dulunya kita boikot?
Kita sepatutnya gunakan platform ini, untuk menerangkan islam agama yang suci dan indah ini dalam bentuknya yang sebenar. Secara positifnya, Allah sedang buka jalan pada kita untuk meluaskan daawah kita. Setelah itu, insyaAllah Allah akan mengizinkan manusia keluar dari perhambaan sesama manusia secara TOTAL melalui kita, hanya jika kita ingin menjadi penolong-penolong Dia.
Yakinlah, janji Allah itu benar.
Wallahua'lam,
P/s - penting untuk belajar bahasa mandarin sekarang!!!!

Friday, September 21, 2007

to go or not to go?

Dear All,

Please be informed that we are in the midst of identifying staff for further studies in Masters of Science in Geoscience at University Teknologi Petronas (UTP). This programme is for a period of one and a half year and will commence in January 2009.

The number of places offered is for 6 staff. Thus, we would like to invite staff who is interested to revert back to me as soon as possible.

Any queries, do contact me for clarification.

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Australia… Where my heart is….


Perth is gorgeous. Love the city. Love the people. Love the feeling. Love everything. I even drive around with my sisters in Perth. Yup, they drive very careful. (I guest I am used to Malaysia way of driving now..) Feeling like staying in Perth forever. It feels very sad to come back. Back to reality.

Someone ask, what is so good about Australia. Most of the people who have been in the down under would know the answer. My mentor is one of them. He said he hate the city the first day he arrived, and now he keep searching for job and counting the tax to settle down in Oz. But that is only 50% of my answer, the rest let it be sweet memories that never fade away from my heart.

Everyone who knows that I graduated from UQ in geology said that I am fool for not staying in Australia. Including En. Shah. And most of them said I’m double fool for giving up all the offers. If it wasn’t for my mum, I won’t give up the first offer. If it wasn’t for the wedding, I won’t give up the second offer. If it wasn't for tarbiyyah and daawah I won't give up both offers.I was meant to come back. And I did what I have been told to do so.

But this time, coming back is really entering a whole new world. I suggested to my mum again, lets move to Australia.. you’ll love it there. And she said, I really have to consider “his” say. And I told her that I have a tournament to attend to on 14th -16th of June at Kerteh, and she said, put yourself on the other important person’s shoes, and imagine how would he feel if you’re going to the netball match on your marriage leave. (I don’t intend to go in the first place but when she said that, it makes me feel sad, and reminds me of My Best Friend’s Wedding.

My Best Friend’s Wedding

I watched the movie again. 3 times indeed. MAS offer variety selections of movies. But I can’t resist my heart from watching beautiful Julienne with her plans on stealing the bride’s man. Kimberly Wallace sacrificed her college, her interest, her family, her career just to be with the man she loved. I don’t know whether I can do such sacrifices. Anyway, love the movie. Love the songs.

We even had everyday session of listening to My Best Friend’s Wedding original soundtrack. And of course my Mariah’s collection. (En. Shah was the one who started requesting for it everyday.. and guess what he started missing it now).

Whenever you call – this is my song with Huda. Hero – our song when we were at Gowrie (Sarah, Huda and me). Always be my Baby – my song with my roommate at Residence Hotel back in 2002 orientation programme. Forever – my song with my friend in the UK. And the list goes on.

I keep mumbling all these at the office back in Perth. Until they remember which one is which.
“I hope you two will find your own song” Rahimi said. Well, before that, let’s hear from Amanda Marshall again, from My Best Friend’s Wedding Original Soundtrack…

I’ll be OK

It’s the time to let you go
It’s time to say goodbye
It’s no more excuses
No more tears to cry

It’s been so many changes
I was so confused
All along you were the one
All the time I never knew

I want you to be happy
You’re my best friend
But it’s so hard to let you’re going now
All the could have been

I always have the memories
Should always have you
Fate has the way of change it
Just when you don’t want it to

Flow away the change
Let love fly away
Till love comes again
I’ll be ok.

Life passes so quickly
You got to take your time
But you miss what really matters
You miss all the signs

I’ve spend my life searching
For what it was always there
Sometimes it will be too late
Sometimes it won’t be fair

Flow away the change
Let love fly away
Till love comes again
I’ll be ok

I won’t give up I won’t give in
I can be creative but just might have been
I know that my heart will find love again
Now is the time to begin


Flow away the change
Let love fly away
Till love comes again
I’ll be ok
I’ll be ok
I’ll be ok.

I can’t hold on forever baby
Can’t hold on forever baby
Can’t hold on forever baby
I’ll be ok.

Take care, and be good as always..
Cheers.

Thursday, May 24, 2007

Perth...

Assalamualaikum,

Big smiles. We have (sort of) come into conclusion who should win the bid. Hmm, the contractors here are even thougher. They did give us a hard time. A lot of lenghty clarifications, and nonsences requests. Nevetheless, that is not the reason that has put big smiles on my face.

OK lets recall on Sunday morning. We didn't manage to be on business class this time (less than 6 hours travelling). Even the manager has to be on economy. That's not a big deal. As long as it is to Australia, it has already make a huge.. real huge difference. There is no word to describe how happy when the flight touched down at Perth International Airport. For the first time, I dont have anything to declare at the airport. But the dog was scarier this time. They were not as active as today, 3 years ago.

When we were out from the airport, I immediately feel the cool breeze of Autumn. Hahah, guess what, I left all my jumpers, and jackets back in Malaysia. Hahah never thought of the autumn is as cold as this. Alhamdulillah, Rahimi came and be the life saver as always...Dia kan banyak lemak to guard him from the cool weather... Rahimi no offence.. I'm just quoting you.

Perth is a very cosy city. No traffic. The bus is free. Clean. I can drink directly from the tap . First thing I bought after arriving... susu segar... and the Australian witbix!!!!we had lunch at the kings park.. there is long lists about aussie that is still the same.. tapi.. nnti lah cerita.. nk balik... wanna meet the sisters today..

some pictures: http://kimberlite.fotopages.com

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Australia... balik kampung


OK bnyk sgt nk cerita, tapi at the moment, am so happy to know that I'll be going to Australia again!!!! alhamdulillah thank you Allah for the news.. Perth.. a place that I've never been to... surely its not gonna be as good as brisbane 2 to 3 years ago... nevertheless, the feeling is much better than 7 years ago...
A phone call that cheered me up

Semalam masa tgh pening and mengantuk2 di office.. that Timor Leste guy called...

Him: I have something to tell you. Do you want to hear the good or the bad one first?
Me: Either is fine for me
Him: Pn. said, kau... x boleh...
Me: It's all right... so sapa yang pergi?
Him: ... x boleh kalau x pegi...
Me: Does it mean that I'm going??
Him: Yah from what I understand.
Me: Dude.. you're not kidding me right?
Him: Well, wait for the email if you dont believe me.

Thank you so much mate for the news. I owe you big thing man.. it really really does meant a lot to me...and yup its gonna be a great one.
Is it?

Being really stressed out lately. Did I tell you that I'm getting married??? Yah, in less than a month time, I'll be changing status from a Cik to a Puan... I dont know what should I feel. It took me more than 3 weeks to register. Each day, I've been crying either because it is so hard, or because I miss my parents so much, or because Huda makes me cry again. A few friends asked, how do I feel. I feel like there's a big, huge gigantic rock that I'll be carrying on my shoulder. I lost my concentration, I always feel restless. I lost my patience. Scolded people around me very easily. And all those mix feelings.

Am I being too paranoid about all these things? A few people have commented: you talk like you're having a mid life crisis... others said: it seems like you've been married for 17 years. I don't know. I'm afraid of so many things...
- I'm afraid of losing my pace in daawa
- I'm afraid of losing what I have
- I'm afraid of losing my say and my way
- I'm afraid that I cannot cope with the brand new responsibility
- I'm afraid of being a bad wife
- I'm afraid I'll gaduh with my future mother in law
- I'm afraid that I might not be taat
- I'm afraid of changes???
- I will miss my parents more and more
Since 12, I left home and never stay more than 2 months. Bila dh start kerja, work has taken a lot from me. Tanggungjawab kita lebih banyak dari masa yang kita ada. The result is, my parents have to sacrifise their feelings. Mak and ayah, if both of you know what I'm doing, and redha to let me go, insyaAllah you'll be awarded equally or maybe more than me. I love both of you so much, and please know that, eventhough I am always not around, eventhough I hardly come home, I really miss you... a lot.. like the whole world. And the fact that you guys had being so patience and redha to let me go, I thank both of you so much for that. You've done a great deal to make me, me, and know these deen. I hope both of you understand, that I really really loves you...
To stay positive is a great mujahadah. To remain istiqamah is a huge mujahadah. To stay conciously doing and getting through all these for the sake of Allah is tremendous effort. It needs a loottt of patience and patience and patience and of course Allah's help. And surely, with Allah's help, everything will be fine. Sakinah, mawadah wa rahmah juga akan turun. Cik kimah... hanya penolong2 Allah sahaja yg tidak akan merasa takut dan sedih. Don't you want to be His assistance?
The trip
Hopefully, it'll bring a new me, to enter a new life, to be a new person, better and better each day... to my parents, siblings, sisters, mates, and my future husband, and in laws.
Take care, and be good as always..

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

terasa kehilangan

terasa kehilangan...

It has been more than 2 years since i left Australia. It has been 2 years i've worked in the most successful multinational oil company of Malaysia. It has been 2 years. On my last days in Aussie, I always said.. life is gonna be very different... we will face something more challenging, more adventurous, yet aspiring.
And indeed life is very different compare to 2 years ago. Very different. Muhammad Ar-Rashid mentioned dalam Munthalaq, mukmin yang sebenarnya adalah mereka yang mempunyai kriteria "mengubah".
Lets question ourselves. How much changes that we have brought in people's life?Be it our parents? Siblings? Mates? Anak buah? Working Environment? Brothers and Sisters? Neighbours? Or have all these dunya changed us? Adakah ia telah mengubah neraca kehidupan kita???
Dengan izin Allah, kehidupan ini akan berubah lagi. Jika masih ada lagi kehidupan pada hari esok. Satu perubahan yang sangat susah untuk ditelan. Bagai menggenggam bara api? Entahlah, sebuah perubahan yang sukar untuk diungkapkan dengan kata-kata. Tetapi, seorang sahabat sekali lagi berkata... terasa kehilangan... dan sekali lagi berkata... life is gonna be very different...
Wahai Tuhan yang membolak-balikkan hati, tetapkan hatiku di jalanMu...