alhamdulillah

alhamdulillah...

yay!!!! ive finished everything.. hope everything is fine so i dont have to do any supp. Rasa sungguh relief dah abih semua benda, tp not that relief sbb so bnyk of things yg kene fikir.


scholarship


merujuk kepada email di bawah. Perkara ini tidak semudah yg disangka. Meh kita huraikan bg nampak dia complecated sket. First of all, my return ticket going back for good in Malaysia is on 16 Dec.


Second of all, the scholarship need to be done at least 6 weeks. 16 Dec is less than 4 weeks from now.


Thirdly, my parents is going to hajj on the 22 Dec. Typical Malay culture, when you go to haji, you want everybody in your family (basic and extended family) to come and visit you. And 22nd Dec is 4 weeks from now.


By looking at these dates, there is no way I could do any project, and get the scholarship.


The scholarship doesn't matter to me that much. Mmg la you get some amount of money each week, plus your allowance jalan jugak. But the whole project thingy sound so good and exciting and great. Lebih kurang 4 weeks before the graduation, and having something to do during the 4 weeks is a bonus!


Could it more complicated? Hish, I dont know. Tepuk dada tanya hati. I keep asking myself heeps of times.. Sehingga a few times focus utk study for the exam terpesong. Anyway...


What do you really really want???


This is kind of a hard question. Hmmm what do I really one.
First option - Taking the scholarship, negotiate with my parents and petronas. By negotiating with my parents, if Im not there saying goodbye to them upon their pligrimage hmmmm I guess I would be a trendsettter. Hmmmm. But saying it to Petronas is another tough thing to do. Last time I talk to my dearest student advisor, he was soooo soooo happy heard that Im going back on 16 Dec. Being a fussy scholar (thats me) who always peningkan kepala dia kata nak sambung belajar, when I said this He maybe released.


I've closed the idea of doing hons from my memory. Truely, its a great oppurtunity doing hons and stuff, but somehow on the other side of me. I feel a little tired on doing what geologist have to do. Exhausted! Plus, last time I talked to my best buddy, she said, Malaysia is more in need of workers than Australia. Plus, after seeing how the sisters progressed, I think they are far more better than me, and they can sail the boat to its destination.


What do I really really want


The same questions pops up again. And, I really dont know whats the answer. Who cares what I want??? We dont usually get what we want. But I only hope that, no matter whether I want it or not... Allah will make it easy for me. That's it!!!


So....
hmmm, possibly tonight, I will musyuwarah with all the international consulate. So, be ready eh! Then... I dont know.


But, out of everything... I think I want to take the scholarship. And if I got it, insyaAllah at least 10% of it will be to Brisi's.. So, Allah please.. if that is the best for me.. Make it easy.. If its not, take it away from me, and make me redha on what ever things that u've been decide for me. Im truly yours!!!


So What's next


heheheh I haven't had a life as a "manusia" for a longgggg time. So, stuff that I wanna do
- cooking (guess how long I havent been cooking the realll food!!!)
- baking (miss my yummy choc cake)
- sewing (i got one kain tak sew lagi)
- finish off the knitting stuff (tangguh dari last year)
- sleeping at the sisters place (i miss you dennise!!)
- basically, do what supposed "normal human" do..
- composing (heheheh something for everybody)
.... and the list goes and on and on and on....