netball

I missed my team...

my team

its time to let you go
its to say goodbye
its no more excuses
no more tears to cry


its been so many changes
i was so confused
all along you were the one
all the time i never knew


i wanted you be happy
my best friend
but its so hard to let you're going now
all that could have been


i always have the memories
should always have you
fate has the way of change it
just when you dont want it to


fly away the change
let love fly away
till love comes again
i'll be okay


life passes so quickly
you got to take your time
you miss what really matters
you missed all the suns


i've spend my life searching
for whats always there
sometime it will be too late
sometime it won't be fair


i won't give up i won't give in
i cant be creative but just might have been
know that my heartfind love again
now its the time to regain


fly away the change
let love fly away
till love comes again
i'll be okay
i'll be okay

masa birthday sarah

it is so hard to say goodbye

Everything changes but memories remain.. something so tender I can't explain


Dec 2000


Seingat cik nur, last paper that day was biology. Pretty happy that cikgu Ranti's targeted questions were coming out. I think I did well on that paper. Then, abih SPM, hari raya AIDILFITRI.


Jan 2001


Balik rumah, I was accepted to join - Program Kepimpinan Tun Razak. (The one that Iznan and Asri went). This is one of the best thing happened in my life. I think lah, because when you're young at that school (well known as SEMESTI), you have a lot of dreams, as for me, one of it was to attend this kursus. And alhamdulillah I got it. (Nanti rajin bebila cerita pasal PKTR - best woo). I meet a lot of great people, very nice friends, and one of my best buddy.


Then balik rumah (dgn demam yg sgt kuat - directly turun je dari janda baik, Pahang), I received a call from Petronas (I was accepted to be one of the 10 students going to Australia early (using the forecast result, before result SPM keluar). I was like... alhamdulillah, but I dont really know whether to go there or not. Because back in my younger days at school, I was one of the doctor wannabe freak. Hehehh. Anyway, I managed to organise everything in a week. Alhamdulillah, I'm with another girl, that I knew at PKTR as well (but she were in the debate team at mozac and muzaffar shah (tp she only smile when i give salaam to her). Rezeki kitorang nak kenal dan jatuh cinta lepas sekolah kan...

huda and me 4 years ago

That was it-something that we call miracle of Allah, that brought me here. We were still in "shocked" but not so much because both of us kind of blur and unaware of what's happening around us. But since then, we were housemate, and best buddy. Because both of us came from "sort of islamic background", we keep reminding each other of what not to do, eventhough we were in this so called "you can do whatever u like country"..


I still remember.. we were saying after we landed at the Brisbane International Airport.
"Eeee tak sangka kita dah kat australia dah kan.."


hehehhe.. something changes but beauty remains... something so tender I can't explain.

wedding

Wedding


Selamat pengantin baru diucapkan kepada:


tisya dan farid serta zurabika zainuddin dan pasangannya(sorry tak tau nama). Semoga perkahwinan yang terbina ini kekal selamanya, dan bakal menjadi satu taman yg subur di syurga. :) Selamat segalanya.

balik kampung

Last day online kat my own pc at "my room" in australia


Sudah tidak ada airmata lagi yg bisa ditangisi. Semua?? mcm dah habis je dua tiga minggu yg lalu. tp dua tiga hari lepas cam kuar balik... mmm nanti bebila dia kuar balik aaa ni.


Kisah air mata. Malam ni juga sedih, sbb last night online kat my own pc at my room in australia. Duduk rumah skang ni mmg sedih sbb barang sume dah berkotak2, cam sedih aaa kiranya. So, cs menjadi singgahan utama, then rumah kak ros, then rumah kak fidah.


So, to all my online buddies (dikira dari segi kekerapan dlm masa terdekat ini:
- my sisters (esp salwa, fazz, and huda)-- nanti kita jumpa kat malaysia eh.. insyaAllah
- kak fidah -- selamat menulis dgn baik ya
- muyam - thank you for your time and lawak bodoh and keceriaan kau sepanjang aku tgh sengsorang ni. All the best dude.
- adik - sorry for everything, and thank you for your support, all the best to you too.


Sesapa yg tertinggal sorry eh...


ketika diri mencari sinar
secebis cahaya menerangi laluan
adakalanya langkahku tersasar
tersungkur di lembah kegelapan


bagaikan terdengar bisikan rindu
mengalun kalimah menyapa keinsafahan
kehadiranmu menyentuh kalbu
menyalakan obor keinsafan


tika kukealpaan kau bisikkan
bicara keinsafan kau beri kekuatan
tika aku diuji dgn dugaan
saat ku kehilangan keyakinan
kau nyalakan harapan
saat kumeragukan keampunan tuhan
kau katakan rahmatnya mengatasi segala


dedicate to everybody.. walaupun kengkadang kasih ini dibaja di belakang skrin komputer, tp time tu lah kengkadang tak de "malu" sehingga wujudnya thiqah antara kita... semoga pertemuan ini kekal abadi...

mencuri masa

MASA


"Demi masa, sesungguhnya manusia dalam kerugian. Kecuali yang beriman dan beramal salih dan berpesan pada kebenaran dan berpesan pada kesabaran"


Surah pendek yang hanya mengandungi 3 ayat, menggambarkan satu peraturan hidup yang sempurna bagi manusia sebagaimana yang dikehendaki Islam. "Masa" sama seperti makhluk yang lain, dan memiliki sifat makhluk iaitu ada permulaan dan ada penghujungnya, berbanding dgn sifat Allah yg kekal. "Masa" adalah indikator terpenting dalam kehidupan manusia. "Masa" lebih mahal dari emas dan permata, "masa" adalah kehidupan.


Dan didalam ayat diatas, jelas, sepanjang mana pun kehidupan manusia, hanya ada satu cara dan satu jalan hidup sahaja yang membawa keuntungan dan keselamatan. Dan itulah satu-satunya cara dan jalan hidup yang telah dijelaskan sempadan-sempadannya di dalam surah ini. Selain dari cara hidup ini, HIDUP MANUSIA ADALAH SIA-SIA


i) beriman
ii) amalan yang salih
iii) berpesan pada kebenaran
iv) berpesan pada kesabaran


Duduk sejenak dan berfikir, betapa telah bertahun-tahun masa dihabiskan dengan tidur. Bertahun masa telah dihabiskan dengan makan. Bertahun masa telah dihabiskan dengan menuntut "ilmu sihir". Bertahun-tahun masa dihabiskan dengan hilai tawa, perkara lagha.. dan dosa.... Sungguh bnyk masa dihabiskan dengan mengeluh kepenatan, mengeluh mendapat ujian..Berapa harilah agaknya masa dihabiskan dengan menangisi dosa yang menggunung, meraung dengan keadaan umat yang tenat.


Pesanan kepada yang masih belajar


Masa muda hanya sekali. Ya!! Tidak datang muda setelah tua. Jangan rosakkan masa muda dengan makanan yg haram. Jangan binasakan masa muda dengan hilai tawa yang terlalu banyak. Jangan gelapkan masa muda dengan pandangan yang hina. Kerana masa muda itu sekalilah, hanya ini masanya untuk memahami dan meyelami.. lalu mempraktikkan islam. kerana masa muda itu sekalilah... al-quran itu perlu diteliti sama banyaknya dengan faham dan apply calculus, thermo, mineralogy, dan apa saja subject yg kononnya susah. supaya tidak ada sesal bila sudah tua nanti..


Teringat akan kata-kata seorang sahabat setia... fikrah islam itu letaknya di dalam Al-Quran, bukan di dalam buku-buku fikrah...


Marilah sama-sama menyelami Al-Quran

sepanjang minggu

assalamualaikum warahmatullah. selawat dan salam buat rasul junjungan... meh kita update dgn cerita ceriti sementara komputer belum disconnected lagi ni..


Graduation


I keep thinking why am I so pushy and degil? For me graduation ceremony and convocation is just a small matter. Bukan la bermakna kita tak menghargainya kan, pergi ke tak pergi, sama je.. graduate jugak. Plus the academic transcript tu yg employer akan tgk, not your graduation picture wearing that "ciplak" jubah and topi 4 segi tu..


Tp, sbb inilah yg mewujudkan perbalahan with my parents. Ye la, when I was thinking about the hiring cost ($AUD 85), and so much I can do with this amount of money, ditambah pulak dengan diri ini yg sememangnya tidak kesah dengan bebenda mcm tu, especially when i was thinking 85 bucks for less than 5 minutes walk of fame is unappropriate and just the waste of money.


But, bukan semua org look at things like I do. Setelah dipujuk (dan baru laaa saya sedar yg saya ni degil sbb gene degil tu turun dari ayah saya.. ehehhe), dan dipujuk oleh my family (mak plays a big role on saying all the stuff tp ayah punya action yg membuatkan saya cair gila sampai terpaksa gak ikut), baru laaa I thought of the other side of the story.


Graduation I think, it meant most to the people around you, especially your family. Barula saya teringat that I was the first in the family to go oversea. And baru laa saya teringat yg how people use me as a model (when my pakcik2 tanya anak2 derang yg umur kecik2 ni.. nak jadi pandai mcm siapa, they all answer me laa... (membuatkan saya terkembang lebih besar dari rumah atuk)). Masa ni laa baru terfikir yg it can be such a big motivation to a lot of people, especially my brothers and sister. Ye laaa takkan la dekat budak2 kecik and your sepupu you want to tunjuk your graduation cert and academic transcript (gile pe???). So, I think a picture of you wearing that "prestigeous gown" and a big smile on your face, with your hands holding the graduation stole and extra accessory like a of bouquet of flower - akan memberi impact yg besar to a lot of people.


Finally, I changed my decision - to go for the graduation ceremony. And bermulalah cerita2 kakakku yg tinggal di sini. Girlish stuff, yg comel gak laaa.. I give big credit to kak ros , kak yanti , and kak fidah for being so comel.


Hari-hari terakhirku...


my fav line: Saya nak kemas rumah...
kak ros: kak ros dengar benda tu dari dua minggu lepas lagi...


another fav (but not so fav line): jom kita climb roof top...
Tp, saya dah usha2 a few places yg rasanya tangganya sampai roof top. Hmmm mission lagi satu sebelum balik..